I am a quiet afternoon...
Wow - it's been a while...just goes to show how crazy things have been for everyone as of late.
How often is it that I get to say I'm sitting in my dining room, with nothing really to do? Granted I did a lot of work today, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be, and I got a ton done. It's easy to work when there are practically zero distractions, he he he. Anyway, here I sit...lookin out the window, and feeling...well, for lack of a better word...serene. This is the first entire weekend I've been home for 6 weeks. It's always been a wedding, or a vegas trip, or a bachelor party, or a cruise, or another wedding...so much to do lately. And not that it bothers me, I love spending time w/ my friends and family and being active; it just stands out when I'm finally home and I can actually relax. It's nice to be able to simmer in your own thoughts and not have to rush off somewhere in like an hour. I can take my time, and just be well....spontaneous. Strange though; I have always considered myself quite spontaneous, but it's hard to be when you're planning shit ahead of time so often. So here's to more spontaneity, which in turn leads to more relaxation...
Normally, I'd post a pic here of my latest activity or event, but today, I wanna do something outside of my norm...I can post my congrats and salutations and update you on the goings on in my next post...
Of dreams and emotion
"I had the most insane dream last night!" Now how many times have you heard that phrase? I think we all have them. And I'm sure, if you've talked to me enough, you've heard that statement a gabillion times. But about a week ago...was it a week? Or two? Wow, time sure does fly...ANYWAY, so i had a dream..., and it was truly was insane...not insane as in aliens came to earth, picked up all of the dogs and left us w/ no man's best friends anywhere...but insane as in how real it seemed. Real, yet not...bear with me, I'm getting there. Here we go....
...I started out in the car with Gleen on the way to church...my old elemetary school, St. Augustine in Culver City. Anyway, apparently we were on the way to MY wedding! In my dream, I kinda knew I was getting married and at the same time, I think my real mind was like, WTH? So I'm talking to Gleen and trying to call Father Pat to see if he at the last minute can officiate the wedding because I just found out he hadn't left for Vietnam yet(a lil background, Fr Pat goes to do mission work in Vietnam 2-3 times a year for 2-3 months at a time). Anyway, he can't do it because he's already scheduled for something else.
...We pull up to the church, and gleen and I are chitchatting. Apparently, I haven't seen this girl for a while - we got engaged and either she was away for a bit, or I was, so I'm asking Gleen what he thought about everything, because apparently, I had not been with her for very long. So he tells me that at first everyone kinda tripped out, and thought we were getting married too soon, but after they saw us together, they had no questions or concerns at all. So Gleen and I are walking to the parish hall, because I need to change, and as we're walking by the church someone flags me down and says, "What are you doing?" You're missing her. Apparently, there's this pre-celebration mass thing going on, which in retrospect is kinda strange because I'm not supposed to see the bride before the wedding, right? So I walk towards the church...and I can kinda hear singing inside. I go in through the front right side doors of the church...
...and there she is, singing near the altar. She's gorgeous - it was like seeing a sunset for the first time in my life, beautiful. She sees me and smiles, and all of the sudden, I just had this sense of peace inside. That everything was fine in the world and I had nothing to worry about. I was no longer anxious about what was about to happen. All of the sudden, I was just trying to take it all in and contain my happiness. So she finishes singing her song and I immediately go up to her. Her mom is there with her, and we're all just talking. She(wife-to-be) locks arms with me, tells her mom we want some QT and we walk away and just start talking. Again, inside, I am the happiest that I have been in a long time. We're just lost in conversation, and we're just looking at each other, and well, everything is just, serene.
So heres the kicker...I don't even know who this girl is!!!! Like I can describe the face and the smile and everything, but I have never really truly met this person in my life - at least I don't think I have. She did resemble someone, but only slightly. Even in the dream, Chris compared her to another person, but still...what a trip. Sometimes I walk around wondering what I would do or say if I ever ran into that person. What do you say? Hey stranger, I had this crazy dream we got married...how 'bout them digits? Ummm...no, I don't think so, he he he.
You know, what the truly insane thing is how crazy such intense emotion and feeling can be elicited from just a dream. A dream. Like I said, I was truly the HAPPIEST I have been in over a year. Kinda sad and pathetic, he he he, but incredibly and mysteriously intriguing as well. I was in a dreamworld...and at that moment, the dreamworld was better than real life, and I didn't want to wake up. I've always been a believer that dreams are just a random collection of thoughts, but I know there are people that have had dreams help them make decisions, have dreamt about things happening in their lives, and even God visited Jacob(was it Jacob?) in his dreams. Maybe there's more to dreams than meets the eye. Maybe it was a message that things are good. I don't know...time to buy one of those dream books, he he he.
55 small things you can always do
35. Pay for a manicure for your mom or dad.
Down to the last 20 items...I wonder how long that's gonna take. Anyway, take mom and pop(or someone you love) for a manicure, or a massage, or a haircut. Something small that they'd enjoy. A movie or a walk in the park. These things are so often overlooked but are so valuable. Life is not only about the big events, but also the little things...don't forget that.
"Desire, ask, believe, receive."
-Stella Terrill Mann
How often is it that I get to say I'm sitting in my dining room, with nothing really to do? Granted I did a lot of work today, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be, and I got a ton done. It's easy to work when there are practically zero distractions, he he he. Anyway, here I sit...lookin out the window, and feeling...well, for lack of a better word...serene. This is the first entire weekend I've been home for 6 weeks. It's always been a wedding, or a vegas trip, or a bachelor party, or a cruise, or another wedding...so much to do lately. And not that it bothers me, I love spending time w/ my friends and family and being active; it just stands out when I'm finally home and I can actually relax. It's nice to be able to simmer in your own thoughts and not have to rush off somewhere in like an hour. I can take my time, and just be well....spontaneous. Strange though; I have always considered myself quite spontaneous, but it's hard to be when you're planning shit ahead of time so often. So here's to more spontaneity, which in turn leads to more relaxation...
Normally, I'd post a pic here of my latest activity or event, but today, I wanna do something outside of my norm...I can post my congrats and salutations and update you on the goings on in my next post...
Of dreams and emotion
"I had the most insane dream last night!" Now how many times have you heard that phrase? I think we all have them. And I'm sure, if you've talked to me enough, you've heard that statement a gabillion times. But about a week ago...was it a week? Or two? Wow, time sure does fly...ANYWAY, so i had a dream..., and it was truly was insane...not insane as in aliens came to earth, picked up all of the dogs and left us w/ no man's best friends anywhere...but insane as in how real it seemed. Real, yet not...bear with me, I'm getting there. Here we go....
...I started out in the car with Gleen on the way to church...my old elemetary school, St. Augustine in Culver City. Anyway, apparently we were on the way to MY wedding! In my dream, I kinda knew I was getting married and at the same time, I think my real mind was like, WTH? So I'm talking to Gleen and trying to call Father Pat to see if he at the last minute can officiate the wedding because I just found out he hadn't left for Vietnam yet(a lil background, Fr Pat goes to do mission work in Vietnam 2-3 times a year for 2-3 months at a time). Anyway, he can't do it because he's already scheduled for something else.
...We pull up to the church, and gleen and I are chitchatting. Apparently, I haven't seen this girl for a while - we got engaged and either she was away for a bit, or I was, so I'm asking Gleen what he thought about everything, because apparently, I had not been with her for very long. So he tells me that at first everyone kinda tripped out, and thought we were getting married too soon, but after they saw us together, they had no questions or concerns at all. So Gleen and I are walking to the parish hall, because I need to change, and as we're walking by the church someone flags me down and says, "What are you doing?" You're missing her. Apparently, there's this pre-celebration mass thing going on, which in retrospect is kinda strange because I'm not supposed to see the bride before the wedding, right? So I walk towards the church...and I can kinda hear singing inside. I go in through the front right side doors of the church...
...and there she is, singing near the altar. She's gorgeous - it was like seeing a sunset for the first time in my life, beautiful. She sees me and smiles, and all of the sudden, I just had this sense of peace inside. That everything was fine in the world and I had nothing to worry about. I was no longer anxious about what was about to happen. All of the sudden, I was just trying to take it all in and contain my happiness. So she finishes singing her song and I immediately go up to her. Her mom is there with her, and we're all just talking. She(wife-to-be) locks arms with me, tells her mom we want some QT and we walk away and just start talking. Again, inside, I am the happiest that I have been in a long time. We're just lost in conversation, and we're just looking at each other, and well, everything is just, serene.
So heres the kicker...I don't even know who this girl is!!!! Like I can describe the face and the smile and everything, but I have never really truly met this person in my life - at least I don't think I have. She did resemble someone, but only slightly. Even in the dream, Chris compared her to another person, but still...what a trip. Sometimes I walk around wondering what I would do or say if I ever ran into that person. What do you say? Hey stranger, I had this crazy dream we got married...how 'bout them digits? Ummm...no, I don't think so, he he he.
You know, what the truly insane thing is how crazy such intense emotion and feeling can be elicited from just a dream. A dream. Like I said, I was truly the HAPPIEST I have been in over a year. Kinda sad and pathetic, he he he, but incredibly and mysteriously intriguing as well. I was in a dreamworld...and at that moment, the dreamworld was better than real life, and I didn't want to wake up. I've always been a believer that dreams are just a random collection of thoughts, but I know there are people that have had dreams help them make decisions, have dreamt about things happening in their lives, and even God visited Jacob(was it Jacob?) in his dreams. Maybe there's more to dreams than meets the eye. Maybe it was a message that things are good. I don't know...time to buy one of those dream books, he he he.
55 small things you can always do
35. Pay for a manicure for your mom or dad.
Down to the last 20 items...I wonder how long that's gonna take. Anyway, take mom and pop(or someone you love) for a manicure, or a massage, or a haircut. Something small that they'd enjoy. A movie or a walk in the park. These things are so often overlooked but are so valuable. Life is not only about the big events, but also the little things...don't forget that.
"Desire, ask, believe, receive."
-Stella Terrill Mann
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